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ELEPHANT. BASECODES.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @ 9:53 PM
huh...i h8 uni life...not mine..but his...
its so bz...i mean..its damn 2 much!!!

btw..i went 2 cty..
still hvnt gt d bk dat i nd..

when i hopped on d bus...i heard sum1 sed..jessica!!!
ahh..its martin...my korean fren..
we talked bout uni stuff..
he sed he's gna b bz til exams r ova..
which means....end of june..
i was lyk..NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

huh..
thn i told him dat i went 2 acg but cudnt find any teachers who used 2 teach us whn we'r in acg..
sumhw he sed...

"wht bout super mario???"

n i was lyk...huh?!do u mean mr nathu??*fyi..indian guy who's so short..*
n he sed..yea!!
lol..
he's damn funi...


n he sed michael's lyk a mouse..
lol..
i told him 2 put on braces..
hopefully he's gna do it in indo...
lol....

bad day.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 10:19 PM
yea ppl..
i had such a bad day 2day...lyk damn bad...

huh..
i went out wif my fren..i drank chu-hi...its d yummiest drink eva!!!!!!!
stuckd in aut...

i supposed 2 mt michael cz i needed his id 2 gt a book dat i cnt gt in aut..
i meant...aut had d book..but its in high demand..which meant..i cud only gt it 4 2 hours..n 2 hours aint enuf 4 me...n when i checked it in au library..they hv 1...not in short loan s well..

i txtd michael but no reply @ all...
i called him..
but mailbox..

i started 2 think dat he was runnin out of battery..shit..i need dat book asap..
i txtd him alot..but still no reply T.T

i called him...but still mailbox..*wastin my credit*

huh...
so i was thinkin jst w8 til he txtd me..
buttttttttttt...
he txted me around 8.15pm....

gosh..i was w8in 4 ages...
he sed he didnt receive any txt..
he was running out of battery from 6pm..
means..when i txted him..sth wrong wif d line...

grrrr....vodafone!!!!!!!!!


then i met ken...
we'r talkin bout God..
he asked me if i believe in God or not..n i sed..yea..
i knew its gna b nvr ending conversation..
he sed evrything had spirit on it...*sounds lyk maori aye?*
even table..cz its made of wood..*he sed it ood..instead of wood*

but thn there's no spirit 4 poo...
i asked him y..he sed cz its not alive..
i sed..wht bout concrete?
he sed...myb..afta few years...

=.=;;;;;;;

n i told him i played Phoenix Wright Trials And Tribulations..i presented all d evidence but stil cudnt get d rite 1..
he sed..y dont u try 2 present ppl????
n i sed..ah..true...didnt even think bout it..
n he sed..u hv 2 use ur brain 2 play it!!

n i was lyk.. =.=;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

i mean...
dn b so mean 2 ur gf!!!!!
it jst sounded lyk i didnt even use my brain...

i did use my brain 2 play it...
but i totally 4gt 2 present a person s evidence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


huh!!!!

古嶋　顕一 <3
Monday, April 28, 2008 @ 10:25 PM
古嶋　顕一　*furushima kenichi/kenichi furushima*

i've known him since 2005..
he was sitting bside me in statistic class..
i decided 2 talk wif him..
but thn he responded me quite bad..
so i was thinkin..huh..this guy aint friendly @ all..
but then few months lata..
we talked alot..
talked bout sum shit..

afta we graduated from acg..i went bck 2 indo 4 few months..n he went bck 2 jpn 4 few monts..
thn in 2007..he asked me 2 cum 2 michael's bday party..
n since then we started 2 hang out alot..
me..ken..michael..
we had same break..
so we decided 2 go dwn 2 napier..tolaga bay n rotorua..
n few days later..we decided 2 go out..

lol..
he loves 2 cook..
he always cooks 4 me >.<
but i cooked 4 him this mrng..
i told him i was gna mk brkfst 4 him..
but his brain didnt rili work @ dat tym >.<

n he tot i was stayin 2 hv dina wif him..
n i sed i was @ home..
he was lyk..dats sad =[ so u'r nt gna cook 4 me 2nyt??
n i was lyk..nahh..
he sed..dats k..nxt tym's gna b fine =]
i was so surprised..i mean...ive nvr cooked in my whole life..
well..i only cooked japanese curry n chicken soup n bala-bala *indo fud*

n i cooked fried rice 4 d 1st tym 2day..
luckily...it was yum!!
lol...

oh..ken slps alot...
ohh..i love him alot...

oh..n...having japanese bf dnst mk me b a jpn freak..but it mks me realise how great japan is...n it bcums 1 of my dream 2 live in japan wif him...
i love d technology..i love d ppl..i love d environment....i love d transportation..
which is damn rare 2 hv those things in indonesia or new zealand..

he's so special 4 me...
cz whn i was with him..i was thinkin its tym 4 me 2 settle wif a guy n hv a serious relationship...

ah..n sum ppl asked me y we decided 2 go out afta we graduated from acg..y nt whn we're in acg..
well..u dn even kno when r u gna fall in love..who's d guy etc..
n apparently...i fell 4 him since lst year...i didnt even kno dat he's d guy dat i wud fall 4..1st few months..i stil cudnt belive dat im goin out wif him...lol..
its all mystery of life..

oh..i miss him already...its really hard 2 spend tym *txtin* cz he's bz wif all tests n assignments etc...


*this post is dedicated 2 my mr. perfect*

( ^3)~*

i love u.
@ 4:18 PM
umff..

i love u...

me (m): i wana get death note comic!!!!!
him (h): its not dat xpensive in jpn..lets check amazon!!!

afta checkin amazon..
h: want me 2 gt it?
m : yes plsss...
h : oh..we cn buy it from here n send it 2 my home then i cn ask my dad 2 send it here instead of sending here cz its gna cost more..
m : thx!!!!!


on my bday lst year..
h : wana get cake??
m : umfff...
h : lets go n get it..


lol..
u dn hv 2 hv say i love u 2 ur bf/gf...
cz my bf is not a typical guy who says 'i love u'
u rarely cn c us holding hands..

even my mom asked me..'y ive nvr seen u guys holdin hands??'

lol..
but it was only in jpn..he held my hand 4 evry seconds i was wif him...

it was sweet 4 me ^^

i still rememba hw excited i was 2 him again afta bein away from each otha 4 1.5 months..cz we always spent evrything 2gta so i flt lyk..i'd missed sth...

i did countdown since a week b4 i went 2 jpn..
we were so excited 2 c each otha again..
n whn it was d tym 2 go 2 airport..i was soooo excited..
i even called him b4 i departed 2 tell him dn 4gt 2 pick me up @ d airport..lol...
i cudnt slp on d plane...
when we arrived in narita..i walked so fast..i jst wanted 2 passed immigration fast..n finally..i went outside but didnt c ken @ all..so we took seats..i went 2 toilet..once i gt out from d toilet..i saw ken..he was walkin towards me but he didnt c me =.=;;

then i was lyk..KENNN!!!!he turned around..he was quite surprised 2 c me..but...he only sed..'sup man?!'

n i was lyk..dats not wht i expected..i tot he's gna gv me big hugs...lol..nvm..
well..
im blessed 2 hv him s bf n go out wif him 4 ova 1 year..

he's kinda unique individual..
he's not romantic..
he talks alot..
laughs alot..
eats choco alot..
tease me alot..
cheers me up when im dwn..

apart from dat..he's soo patient..he cn handle my up-n-dwn mood..

he spoiled me wif lotsa stuff
on my bday..he brought groceries n cooked yummy fuds 4 me..
he gt me a bday cake..
he gave me lotsa dvds..astro boy..looney tunes..pink panther *c..he's nt romantic @ all..*

random.
Saturday, April 26, 2008 @ 7:37 AM
I went 2 cty yesterday..
was 4gt dat it was anzac day..lol..
went 2 ken's apt..
did sum studyin..
michael was makin lunch..
oh yeah.he loves lettuce..
he put lettuce in evry meal..lol...
even in instant noodle..

Lettuce guy..

afta few hours of study..

michael asked me if i wanted 2 go 2 fudtwn or not..

n i sed yeah..ken txtd me sed he wanted 2 go around queen st cz most of shops were hvin sale yesterday..n i told him dat me n michael were bout 2 go 2 fudtwn..n he sed he wanted 2 join in.so we picked him up in frnt of clock tower then went 2 fudtwn..


symonds st on anzac day

n i bought hi-chew

goshh..its sooo yum!

hi-chew on my lap..

we'r bck in d apt...

these boys were putting all fuds in2 d frige..

while me...sitting..n reading my book..n eating hi-chew (>.<)

ken was hungry..so he decided 2 cook sth..

jang janggg...my chef's doing his fav thing....


n u kno wht?!?!he cooked fried rice again?!?!?!i think its his fav..or myb cz its easy..but he cooks fried rice soooo oftennn..

his fried rice...look yum?!

Im checkin amazon now...thinkin 2 get death note comic book...yeay!!im so excited!!


names...namae....nama..
Friday, April 25, 2008 @ 7:59 AM
well...
i was talkin bout name wif ken..
n he sed furushima's d best...

sumhw he sed..
"jess...u cn choose middle name..english name..but 1st n last name hv 2 b jpns name.."

n i sed..well..y dn we jst put 2 names...1st name is english..n 2nd name is jpns...
4 example...umfff...michelle furushima..

but ken was lyk...no!!!no1 use english name in jpn..

n i sed i wana gv name dat's uncommon...
cz my name is sooooooo common..
when i txtd my fren..n they lost their #s...
whose jessica is this??
oh..sori..cz i hv 5 frens name jessica (@.@)

but ken sed usually..if we gv uncommon name 4 a boy..
whn he's in school...his frens gna tease him etc...

so yea..we both kinda agree 2 put 3 names..1st n last r jpns..n middle is english..
4 example..

ken curtis furushima..*i lyk this name tho* 4 a boy
ai sheza furushima 4 a girl

ken always says...1st name has 2 b ken sth..4 boys n ai...4 girl *his fav singer*
isnt it mean?!
instead of using my name..he prefers 2 use ai?!?!
well..
its not a big deal 4 me..
but it is a big deal 4 me if he uses his exs name..
hahahahah...

well..
its jst blabbering...
lol...

michael leon
Thursday, April 24, 2008 @ 10:48 PM
sth happened quite bad 2day...
bt its alrite nw....


ah..
i went 2 ken's apt..
stayed in thr 4 a while..
thn michael's bck..
he was tidyin up his clothes..
so i went 2 his room...

n i ges wht i found?!?!?!

his "boomerang!!!"

well..its his undies..but we call it boomerang...

i shouted..kenken!!!!!!
ken was lyk...huh?!
i threw it 2 ken..

ken wanted 2 try it...michael was lyk..NOOOO!!!!!!!!i hv 2 throw it away if u try it..
but then i kpt givin it 2 ken..
n sumhw ken gt chance 2 try it..
he sed its 2 small 4 him..

lol...
this is hw we joke n play around...

*sumppl myt nt lyk it..
but then we enjoy it alot..


michael leon...
umff..
i met him in acg bck in 2005..
he was damn shy b4..but cz we'r in d same accounting class n we always sat nxt 2 each otha..
we gt closer...n talk alot..n tease each otha alot during accounting..
thn we'r nt dat close in 2006..we only had statistic 2gta...n he always sat near all the geeks..
lol..
then bck in 2007...
i was walkin in queen st..thn sumhw..michael came up 2 my mind..
decided 2 txt him...
n asked 4 ken's # s well..
we met again 4 his bday party..*well..surprised bday paty..n he tot i was d only 1 who rememba his bday cz no1 txted him n he was pretty sad*

then we decided 2 go 2 napier-tolagabay-rotorua...
n since thn..we met often..
we even meet often since ken moved out from his homestay n lives wif him nw...

he's such a great bro..
n he bcumin funnier ths days..
lyk soooo damn funiiii...
lyk whn we were in korean resto...

michael (m): hey..whts d name of d fish?!

hide (h): flat fish

michael (m): no way!!!thr must b name 4 it lyk snapper..or cod..

me: nah..its flat fish michael!!

m: REALLLLYYYY?!?!?!

h,me: yeahh...

ken : hahahahaha...u bcum funnier ths days michael!!!!


lol..
btw..dn kno dat my bf cn b quite scary >.<
well..cz he's typically S...



umfff...
4 u...
sori 4 wht happened 2day =]

changes.
@ 9:07 AM
Look how much we've changed 4 a year...

Rotorua.bck in 10 april 2007.



28 April 2007



july 2007.



july 2007



sep 2007



sep 2007.



jan 2008


anddddd...

april 2008



april 2008
*well..he kpt sayin 2 me if i put his pic in here..i nd 2 talk wif his manager blablabla =.=;;;;;


bck in 2007
i miss my fringe >.<

happy =]
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 @ 9:33 PM
jst random pic ^^

umff..not-so-new hair..actually im bored wif it..wana change my hairstyle bt its still short (T.T)


(>.<)


I was online this mrng..n a gud fren of mine nudged me...
surprisingly....he told me he's gna cum 2 akl on july...

i was lyk...REALLY?!?!?!?!?
n he sed he'd booked d ticket already...

gosh!!!!
im excited 2 c him..
we hvnt met 4 almost 2 years i ges..
lst tym we met..was in 2006..n i cnt w8 2 c him..

*yo frans!!!!bring ur ass rite here asap!!!!!!*

n we'r talkin y girls wana do so many plastic surgery..most of them do boobs job..
n he sed if his gf had boobs job..its gna b turning off 4 him..

hahaha...
i bcum happier whn i gt more ds games..

well..i gt..
-Professor Layton and the curious village
-Chibi-Robo Park Patrol
-Apollo Justice Ace Attorney
-Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney Justice For All
-Phoenix Wright Trials And Tribulations

n ive bn playin chibi-robo park control since i tried it..
i mean..its sooooo fun...


i went 2 JB hi-fi 2day..
its my fav store!!!!!!!
i was thinkin 2 get death note vol. 2..
bt d thing is...i always gt evrythin 1 want str8 away..
i mean..i hv 2 learn hw 2 w8 etc...

but then i met jeffry *a friend of mine who works in JB*
i asked him bout death note vol. 2
he sed its only few left..
they didnt get many..
n @ dat tym..i was thinkin..i hv 2 gt it..
i dn wana mis it @ all!!!!!!!
so i went 2 check death note vol.2 wif figure n without figure..
since d price difference wasnt dat much n i wanted 2 collect all figure..
so i tk 1 wif figure..n brought it 2 cashier n paid it..

when ken saw me..he was lyk...i fl lyk i wana gt sth s well..
so he bought alicia keys dvd...

n here's my death note vol. 2


L s cover =]


it cm wif Yagami Light figure


surprisingly...
when i brought it 2 cashier n d guy in cashier scanned d price..
he turned it around n sed...wow!!!!!!!!!there's a figure dat cms wif d dvd..

i was lyk..hello?!?!?!?
u'r d 1 who sell this..
shudnt u hv 2 kno bout it?!

then i went 2 ken's apt n studied in thr...*hw cn u say it holiday if i hv lotsa assignments 2 do*


books n red bull..i prefer V though...

ah..assignments r killin me softly..*or slowly?*

celeb of d day
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 9:50 PM
guess who is this?????????????


yup yup..
he's my lazy yet sick boy atm..hp he'll recova sn..
miss my active ken who always tease me lyk hell...
n yeah.he always says 2 me dat he's so cool. --"


n again..*close up*
he sleeps evrywhr..
even on d bus --"


i dont rili lyk 2 take pic wif him if he's d 1 who tks pic...
he always put me out from d frame..
like this..


c c c!!!im out of d frame *again*
he wasnt slpin..
he was jst pretendin 2 slp...


this is d 1 dat i found...nd 2 look 4 more pics where he put me out of d frame...


isnt it annoying?!?!?!?!?!?

huh!

...blue...
@ 4:29 PM
i wonda y i feel so blue now...

peeping block
@ 12:05 PM

u cnt even c anythin frm side...




my phone wif all straps n peeping block ^^
i love it alot...

携帯　ストラップ
@ 11:50 AM

携帯　ストラップ

i have lotsa phone straps..bout 7 or 8..but i only put dat on my phone..my mom kept sayin its 2 much..
but nt 4 me..
well..

there's a truck wif a bottle on top of it..its called yawaraka sensha..
i love it alot...
i gt it from ken..he asked his dad 2 send it here ^^

there's a huge mickey mouse..when my frens saw it..they were lyk..its even bigger frm ur phone!!!!i bought it in disneyland..i regretted alot dat i didnt buy minnie mouse 4 dat (T.T)

n thr's a black umbrellawif mickey n minnie..
ken gt it 4 me from d shop dat he was workin 4..its cute tho..u cn c from their feet dat they'r kissing (^.^)


d green 1..of cuz gachapin..
n i bought it in kiddyland *again*
i bought evry gachapin i hv in kiddyland..expect pen 4 ds...
i lyk it alot...
its cute tho...

n triplet donald,daisy n genie..i also bought it in disneyland...
i was thinkin 2 buy it or not but ken sed..jst but it...we dn kno if we cn find it in otha places or not...


lol..

ds =]
@ 11:38 AM

my nintendo ds...all gachapin!!lol..bought it in kiddyland ^^





myob...
Monday, April 21, 2008 @ 9:26 PM
sth bothered me 2day...

y ppl mind otha's business if they cnt even solve their own probs???

4 me..im nt a big fan of wana-kno-otha's-business..
i dn even care bout it..
i only do care bout my probs...

but apparently..sum ppl surround me r big fans of wana-kno-otha's-business..
they even asked me 2 check it..

i was online..n she came n asked me 2 check it..she actually stood bside me til i opened d website..

i was lyk..ughhhh...


n yeah..
im a person who hates being told 2 do a thing repeatedly..
jst say it 1 time is mr than enuf 2 me..
i mite nt do it str8 away...but i'm gna do it 4 sure..
so being told once is more than enuf 4 me..

but apparently..its not enuf 4 my mom..
she keeps telling me d same thing ova n ova again...

i jst dont lyk it...



btw..ken's not feelin well nw..
he's havin rash..dizzy..coughin..running nose..etc

hope he's gna gt bta sn..
@ least b4 exam...

anger management...
Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 10:39 PM
I watched anger management 2day wif ken when we'r havin dina..

he sed michael needed anger management 4 sure..
n i told him..dat i needed it s wel..
n he was lyk..yeah..u need it 4 sure..im serious..

lol...
i kno..
i jst cnt control my emotion these days..

lol...
well..
when i took bus 2 go home..
d driva charged me child price instead of adult price..
i was lyk..yeay...

lol...
i dn kno whether its bcoz of my face or my style..dat sum ppl tot im stil a child..
lol..

n when i did my practicum..
one of mom sed 2 me dat i looked so young 2 b trained s teacher..when i told her i was 19..goin on 20..
she was lyk..WOW!!!

lol...

my fren's fren..who's 17..tot i was younger than him..

i told michael..dats d advantage of havin baby face >.<
but d disadvantage is...
when we'r buying beers..or any alcohol..
michael told me dat he went 2 fudtwn 2 gt beers..
d lady in cashier asked 4 his id..*an indian*
michael gave her his driver license..
n she was lyk..."r u rili 19?!"

michael was pissed off...
n nw..he hates buyin beers in fudtwn...esp..if d cashier is indian..
lol...


well..
au students jst finished their break..
while me..aut students..just officially start our break!!!

yippie!!!!!!!

Hirano Satoshi..
@ 3:48 PM
Hirano Satoshi....

i met this guy on lantern festival...
he was wif a girl..
he didnt even look lyk a japanese..
he's an xchange student...4 bout 3 months..

we always went out 2gta..
fri..sat..sun..


lst week we had a farewell party 4 him..
we went 2 korean resto..
we had fun alot..
he brought his frens s well..


n time went so fast...
on fri..he invited us 2 his homestay..
he was bout 2 have anotha farewell party..

we gt thr @ 7.30
knocked d door..
n all dogs were barkin..
i was lyk..oo...oowww..

fyi...
im scared of big dogs..

finally..we gt in but satoshi wasnt thr..
he went 2 pick up germany boys...
it was bout 8ish..
we were hungry..
margaret ordered pizza..
we gt it @ 8.30pm

we went 2 d house in d back..*they have 2 houses*
rodrigo wanted 2 get more beers..so he asked michael 2 drive him..
n sumhw they ended up in britomart..picked up rodrigo's frens..

gosh..michael told me they were drinkin in public places..*which is not allowed in here*

1 of them were drunk already..

i was tired..
so i was soooo quiet..

i felt much bta when we went bck home..
but thn i had 2 get up early on d nxt day..
we were bout 2 sent satoshi off 2 d airport..
so we woke up @ 5...*cn u imagine hw tired i was..i slpt @ 3 n woke up @ 5*
we caught airbus 2 go..

we arrived @ d airport @ 7ish..
satoshi was still w8in on d line 2 check in..
he was wif anotha xchanged student from his high school..

we were w8in 4 30 mins..
were thinkin 2 have breakfast wif him in mcd..
but thr was a guy..i tot it was his responsibility 2 look after them until they gt in2 immigration..
so we cudnt have brkfst wif him T.T

satoshi sed 2 me.."jess..dont cry!!!"
lol..
but i felt so sad..

@ d moment he went in2 d immigration..
i cried..
ken asked me if i wanted 2 go 2 whitcoulls or not..
n i jst walked away 2 whitcoulls.....

we were walkin around n decided 2 hv brkfst in mcd..
bacon n egg mcmuffin combo!!*yum!*

evrything is weird without having satoshi around anymore T.T
ive gt lotsa things 2 say 2 him yesterday...
but cudnt say it coz i was 2 sad T.T

he's always b our lil bro..

nb:

satoshi...mis ya already!!!




ken?or can?
Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 9:19 PM
i was talkin wif michael bout singlish..*no offense*

cz evrytym i heard my dad's talkin wif his singaporean friend..
i jst dn rili understand it..

but 1 thing i kno...
evrytym my dad asked him.."can i..blablabla?"
his fren always sed..."can..can"

lol..
i talked bout it wif michael in front of michael..
i sed..if they ask "can i..blablabla..?"
usually d answer's gna b "can..can.."


n d funniest thing was...ken sed "hah?!"

he tot i was callin him..


ah..
i went 2 singapore in jan..jst afta i went bck from japan..
i went 2 buy a taiwanese snack in far east plaza..

me (m) : can i get 2 of that pls?!

cashier guy (c) : ok..

shopkeeper (s) : 3 aaa???*wif singlish*

m : 2!

c : *was lookin @ me n d shopkeeper..looked so confused*

s : 3?!

m : 2!!

s : 3?!

m : *asked my bro 2 tell him dat i wanted only 2!!!!*

my bro : 2 aaa!!!*wif bit of singlish*


i was jst damn annoyed!!!!!!
i told ken n he sed its all bcz of different accent...
he was lyk..dats y i dn wana go 2 asian countries...

communication?????
@ 8:31 PM
umf..
i was bein so stupid this mrng.

umff...
feel lyk wana write alot..
but dont rili kno what 2 write...

ah...
ken went 2 my creche yesterday...we did sum music stuff..i did dancing *part of my essay*
he got lost..n i cudnt talk wif him much..
he went back home coz my evaluate lecturer was there.

i knew he was mad..
i felt so bad..
so once i finished.i txtd him..i txtd him heaps..but no reply..
i called him but no answer..
i jst felt so bad..
i wanted 2 sort it out dat day s well..

*well..im a person who cnt bring problem 2 sleep..so better 2 sort it out b4 i slp*

so i decided 2 go 2 cty..
i had a strong feelin dat he was @ home..
i went 2 his apt..
n yeah..he was there..
he sed..i didnt even knock d door *his door*

helloooooo?!?!?!?!since when i started 2 knock ur door?!
i've nvr done dat n u were totally fine wif it!cz i go thr often..

but then y did u complaint?
wasnt it 2 l8?
u shud've complained since we started 2 go out --"

n we only met 4 5 or 15 minutes..didnt even rili talk...

i was damn annoyed..
i meant...i came 2 cty jst bcoz of him...
but then it turned out 2 b lyk dat...

he wanted 2 go 2 uni..
so i went 2 aut..did my assignments..
went 2 au library..
then decided to go home..
whn i was on d bus..
he txted me..asked whr i was..n i asked him y..thn he sed he was thinkin 2 go 2 au library..

n i was lyk..2 l8..im on d bus nw..

haha..

he's so bz...
he dsnt even have tym 4 me..

he dsnt txt much either..

n 2day..i told him..i flt lyk i didnt have any bf atm...hope afta fw wks..i'll gt my bf bck...

n we talked bout txt..
me c txt as a way 2 communicate...

while he dsnt c txt as a way 2 communicate..

n we always hv a small argument bout it *ppl who kno me n ken..will kno..d argument we have..usually full of laughin..full of teasin etc*

but then u kno him..i always lose when i argue wif him..


jst think..lyk u hv a partner but then u guys dn txt often..
4 example...only once per day...
how cn u call it "goin out"
cz 4 me..its only lyk frens..
even my frens txt me alot..not only once or twice once we start txtin..


but ken dsnt think lyk dat..
he sed faith is d most important *which i hv 2 admit dat i agree*

but on d otha hand..
how can relationships work without communication?!

huh...


i learnt from d past dat communication's important...

but then i dn kno how 2 make ken understands of it...


AUT or AUTA
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 @ 6:21 PM
I saw debate magazine when i was havin lunch in yummy sushi wif ken,michael,n satoshi..


on d last page..thr's a question..1 way dat aut can b improved..sum1 sed..lose U after AUT..which rili made sense..i told ken bout it..ken told d rest bout it..they were laughing alot..michael told me he was talkin wif his frens few days ago bout it s well..

well..
hv a look @ this..

Auckland University of Technology University?!?!?!


i mean..AUT stands 4..Auckland University of Technology...they already have university between auckland n technology..so y do they bother 2 put anotha university after technology..

it sounds so ridiculous!!!!


michael asked me whts written on d website when i open AUT website..i sed only AUT but then i rememba dat there's a small university word written under d word AUT..so they all sed..if i wanted 2 write a formal letter..i shud write..Auckland University of Technology University...

sounds funi rite?!

n ken was lyk..jess..if sum1 ask u which uni u go 2..say..AUT University!!!

n i sed..hell no!!!!!!!


this mrng...d rain was quite hard..n i broke umbrella yesterday..didnt hv umbrella @ all..walked thru d rain...

i was wet whn i got 2 creche..
lol..

talked wif mums 2day..
1 of them has a daugher..named miuwai..
she sed its chinese coz his husband's chinese..i was lyk..REALLYYYY??
cz her daughter dsnt look lyk chinese or mix...she looks lyk...caucasian..
n she told me she wanted her husband 2 speak malay 2 miuwai..but then he hardly rememba any malay words..
she asked me if friday's gna b my last day..n i sed..yeahh..
she was lyk..dats sad..

ohh..i set up art table 2day..
i mixed shockin pink wif yellow..*turned out 2 b shockin orange..i rili luv d colour*
n there's a girl..named logan..

she did sum painting...
n sumhow..she went d bucket 2 wash hands...n she was lookin 4 towel..n *gosh!!my short term memory!*

hardly 2 rememba T.T


doshiyo?!?!?!?!
i was gna use it 4 my reflection...
i hv 2 try 2 rememba wht she did..

she's such a lovely girl...

n had a german boy..he was so crancky...he only cried n cried n cried..
his mom cudnt do much..
he kept running away from his mom..

thn i took him wif me..played d mobile wif me..

sumhow he gt excited..
he laughed alot..

i was rili satisfied...


u'll find happiness dat u cnt get,if u r doing otha jobs,when u bcum an early childhood teacher.



teacher or nanny?!
Monday, April 14, 2008 @ 8:31 PM
Some ppl gt mistaken between early childhood teacher and nanny...

when my frens asked me wht i was doin in uni..n i sed..early childhood..they were lyk...wht d hell is dat?!

n i sed...umff..teacher thingy...they were so surprised!!!!!they were lyk..so u wana b a teacher??n i sed..sort of..

well..its all bcoz in indonesia..ppl see teacher as middle-class..or low class..
they dont even respect teacher..
i didnt really respect them b4..but after what i've been through...then i shud say..bein teacher is d best job in d world..

i talked wif nicky *my classm8*
sum ppl asked.."y do u hv 2 get degree 2 b a nanny?"
sum of primary education students asked.."y do u hv 2 go 2 uni 2 play wif babies?

hey ya...we aint nanny!!!


we'r not playin wif babies s well..
dont u eva think..its gna b hard 4 primary teacher if early childhood teachers dont exist???we teach all d children bout basic math..basic colour..basic art..basic science..etc..


if i tell my frens i'm in practicum at d moment...they usually ask what dat is..n i say...student teaching..kinda teaching d kids..

n they ask me...what i teach...n i was lyk..*GOSHHHHH*..i teach them evrything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well..sum ppl stil dont get bout being early childhood teacher...


n now im proud 2 say im trained 2 b early childhood teacher ^^

stubborn.ego.arrogant.
@ 5:16 PM
I cudnt wake up this morning...
was so tired...but sumhw i had 2..d morning session was great..i played wif babies alot..cz thr were lotsa under 2s..i played wif 3 n 7 months-old babies 2day.
i talked alot wif nicky s well..she told me she was a guardian 4 an indonesian student n she's getin marry in august n nicky's gna go 2 beijing...
we'r gna hv lunch on fri coz its our last day in d creche...

we had lunch..n afternoon session was great s well..
there was a boy..lexx.he was doin painting n i was bside him..he sed..thr's sumthin on d paint..i asked him..do u kno wht is dat?..he sed..it must be sum chemical..i was lyk..*HAHHHHH*

seriously..when u work in early childhood sector..u wont even expect dat a 3 years-old boy sayin those kind of stuff..


ah..i talked alot wif ken last nite..
he sed i was stubborn..*well..he sed it ages ago*
arrogant...n egoist..

should i b mad about it?
nah.i wasnt mad @ all..
it made me think..

what makes me so egoist these days..
it jst happened this year..

ego..which means..it has 2 b me...its only bout me...me me me...

n he sed..throw dat stupid ego jess!it dsnt make anything!!it will nvr eva make ppl feel gud...

he makes me realised dat i shud've thrown my stupid ego since ages ago...

coz its not only bout me..
its bout me n ken..

its bout us..
i hv 2 think bout ken s well.
shudnt b so self minded person.


ken sed..its d things dat i cud change..

well..nd 2 try 2 change it....

cz im tired of bein so egoist..stubborn..n arrogant..
cz its only gna make me think alot..wht if...wht if...wht if...



huh...

1 year
Sunday, April 13, 2008 @ 9:26 PM
its been a year already..
but we were 2 bz wif satoshi..
so didnt do anythin special..
was quite disappointed s well..

when evrythin had been sorted out..
ken sed 2 me..its been a year..we talked bout sth..n sumhw he sed..."i care bout u alot"

i still rememba hw he asked me 2 go out...
i still rememba wht we did..
haha...

i was teasin him..
n he was lyk...dont u lyk me anymore????
n i shook my head..lyk sayin no..
n he was lyk......y not?!?!?!?!?!!

lol..its so funi...


gosh..its been raining 4 almost whole day...
2 bad its not lyk jakarta...
thr's no flood...

*wish i dont have 2 work 2moro*

satoshi's farewell party
@ 8:31 PM
I went 2 work..Lotte was thr..gosh..she's so cute!!!she's really gud @ facial expression!!!

then i went 2 cty afta work 2 stay ova on fri til sun..

satoshi's goin bck 2 japan 4 gud nxt week n he wanted 2 have party from fri-sun..
bt d thing was..i 4gt 2 bring my passport..i told ken dat i 4gt 2 bring passport n he asked me 2 go bck n gt passport coz he had no id @ all.

so i went bck home..n decided 2 go 2 cty lata..i took bus @ 3.20 so wud b in cty by 4..
met ken..satoshi came fw hours lata..wif his frens...
we went 2 korean restaurant..
seemed they had nvr been 2 korean restaurant b4..

ken had 2 go 2 meet sawa'chan coz she's goin bck 2 jpn 4 a while..n they were havin party s well..

me got sum drinks..
ah..we did..bomb d beer!!!
haha..sounded stupid but it was so fun..

so there were beer all ova d carpet..
hahaha..

they went bck @ 11ish..
i tk showa thn slpt str8 away..
was 2 tired..

on saturday..we were thinkin 2 go 2 hamilton or bay of island n stay 4 1 nite..but satoshi didnt want 2..d weather was quite bad s well..we cudnt go 2 muriwai..
ken got ipod shuffle 4 satoshi..we were thinkin 2 give him a shirt..but then it costed same actually so we decided 2 get ipod 4 him.
satoshi wanted 2 go home..so we w8d 4 michael 2 finish gym stuff..thn we went 2 his homestay..n we went 2 mission bay @ nite..we ate in beach bar..*its a gud place but they'd a badddd toilet..didnt even have lock s well*

d fuds were quite gud s well..
but i was bit blue..whn ken asked me..i sed..normal..n he looked disappointed *gomenne*

thn we walked in d beach..ken n michael didnt even wanna get sand @ all..i was playin wif d water..thn ken asked me 2 go bck...they were bein mean 2 satoshi..ken whispered "we'r gna give d ipod nw"..n sumhw michael bended on his knee n sed.."will u accept this ipod?"

satoshi was damn surprised!!he was jumpin around n sed "MAJIDE?!?!?!?MAJIDE?!?!?!?!"

it was gud 2 c his expression..we decided 2 get movenpick..

i dragged michael 2 d water so he wud get wet..

we ended up havin..what we called...water fight...
i took off my shoes,jeans n jacket..
michael took off his shoes,jeans, jacket n shirt..

me n him were soooo wet...
i was freezin...

sumhw..thr was a kiwi girl asked ken if we were havin party or goin 2 have party etc..ken sed nah..n she asked ken's name..but u kno ken..he ignored d grl..
lol..

we went 2 d car..i was sitting bhind michael.he opened d window..n ken was lyk..MICHAEL!!!CLOSE D WINDOW!!!n he gave me his jacket..cz he knew i didnt wana use mine..michael closed d window..but sumhow...he opened it again..ken scolded him..
hahaha..

it was fun =]

ja ne satoshi..T.T


RIP Nancy Kung
Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 9:16 PM
I was so nervous this morning coz i knew my evaluate lecturer was gna cum n evaluate me n nicky *anotha student in d creche*

she supposed 2 cum @ 9.30am..
but she didnt even turn up til 10..
i tot she was late..

sumhow..my AT asked me n nicky 2 go 2 her office..
she sed.."well..we all kno Nancy hasnt cum yet..Ross just called me n sed she just died last nite @ 11.She collapsed during lecture n was brought 2 hospital n she died in hospital"

me n nicky was lyk..WHATTTTTTTTT?!?!?!?!?!
i tot i heard it wrong..
but hell no..

me n my frens were so shocked...

then nicky sed...d gud thing was..she cud spend 1 month wif her daughter in london coz she asked Nancy 2 cum..


i told ken..n he was lyk..u k?
hell no..i was k @ all..
hw i cud b k if sum1 i knew jst died..


but we needed 2 go bck on track..2 teach d kids..

thn i talked wif her about my assignments...

n sumhw i asked her if its ok if ken cums n do sum music thingy..
actually..im obsessed wif it..
but i cudnt do it during my 2nd practicum..
n luckily..my AT sed she's totally hapi bout it..
n she was more excited than i was...

i talked 2 ken bout it..
n we decided dat he's gna cum on wed 4 mrng n aftanoon session..*its even bta cz i tot he's only gna do 1 session*


ah..nemui~
nd 2 slp...
othawise..gna b hard 2 wake up 2moro..


live n learn.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008 @ 9:02 PM
I went 2 cty afta work 2day...

met ken..n sumhw he sed he had sum problem..visa problem..
his visa expired on 31 march but he hasnt applied yet 4 a new 1...
so we did evrythin..n he needs 2 write a letter explaining why he's applyin visa l8..

when he was so panicked..i told him..c..i've told u 2 do it ages ago..blablabla..
he seemed annoyed n sed..sori sori..

n afta we sorted out evrythin...
i told him..dat i had told him ageeessss ago 2 do his visa..but then he sed once his visa expired,he wud get 3 months visitor visa str8 away..so i was lyk..fine..

n i kept tellin him 2day dat i had told him ages ago 2 do his visa..n he didnt even listen 2 me..
n i sed..it wudnt happen if u listened 2 me....
n he was lyk..sori...i will listen 2 u nxt time..



well..
live n learn..*dats wht he always says 2 me..but seems he needs it s well*

wadda day.
@ 7:25 AM
Ken n i were so tired yesterday..
afta i finished practicum,i went 2 cty 2 get more books..
thn i got on d bus 2 au str8 away..
i hopped off in au..
went 2 atm..n i was confused..

i 4got hw 2 go 2 aut from au..
so i walked to science building..n i was lyk..yeay!finally!!!

ken txted me dat he was gna find me..
bt sumhw he txted me he was walkin 2 aut --"

so we met in aut..
got books..we went 2 warehouse afta dat..
he broke a bowl in d mrng..so we needed 2 get a new 1..
but we cudnt find it..

thn we went 2 foodtown..
thn went bck 2 ken's apt..
he started 2 cook..

thn afta few hours..i told him i was gna go home..
he was soooo surprised!!!!
he was lyk..WHAT?!i tot u'r gna hv dina in here..

whn i was bout 2 go home..he asked me if it's fine 4 me if i went 2 bus stop by myself..
i was lyk..hey..im not.....*sum1*
he wanted 2 stand on d door..so he moved from sink 2 d door..but i heard..*DUGGGG*
i was lyk..did u hit ur foot?!
he sed..nah!i bumped my head...is it red jes??
n i sed..which 1?!left or right?!
n he was lyk...right...right!!!eh eh..left..left!!
i was lyk --"


sth turned me off this mrng.
well.need 2 get ready 2 work.

anotha day of work >.<
Monday, April 7, 2008 @ 7:24 AM
huh...anotha day of work

gna finish @ 3.30 2day..

need 2 go 2 uni lata..n gt more books T.T



i nd @ least 8 references 2 get C..*isnt it mean?!*

well...
nd 2 do it neway..

i cudnt even sleep..


i woke up evry few hours..

thn since 5am..i woke up evry few mins..


ah..i didnt kno dat daylight savings ended yesterday..so i woke up @ 8..took showa..n went 2 bus stop..but d bus didnt even cum..i went bck home..txted michael n he sed daylight savings ended on 6..which was yesterday..i was lyk *doeng*


thn sumhw i went 2 cty wif 8.50 bus..
went 2 ken's apt..

i kno those 2 lazy head *ken n satoshi* were still slpin..

thn i went 2 his apt..
i opened ken's room...he woke up *he always wakes up if sum1 open his room*
thn sed..mrng!thn gave me hug n went bck 2 slp again..

*i was lyk..keennnn..i already tk showaaa*

haha..

ah..need 2 go nw..

gna catch d bus soon..

last year.
Sunday, April 6, 2008 @ 8:58 PM
last year..
on 6 april...9pm

me,ken,chi,michael were in napier..

we supposed 2 go @ 10am but sumhw ken cudnt get up early.we w8d 4 him til 11ish..

michael picked me up 1st..thn chi..thn we went 2 ken's homestay..

he went out wif 2 plastic bags..
i was lyk..keeenn...is dat rubbish..n he was lyk..hell no!!!!its my clothes..n we were laughin alot..

i always sat bhind ken while chi always sit bhind michael whn we were on d car..
1 tym i sat bhind michael..n i kept complainin cz he opened d window 2 big..so d wind blew soooo hard..i was lyk..MICHAELLL!!!!!!!!cn u close d window pls?!

since thn..i decided 2 sit bhind ken..
me n chi always slpt on d car..
ken cudnt slp..he had 2 stay awake 2 keep michael awake s well >.<

d reception was about 2 close @ 8..n we were kinda..michael..cn u b huri pls?!
lol..
lucky he's such a gud driver.we reached napier @ 8..n we found art deco str8 away *d place whr we stayed in 4 few days*

thn we went 2 d beach nearby..


i rili miss dat moment..
it was so fun..
i didnt even want it 2 end..



btw..dat trip was...d beginning of how me n ken decided 2 go out...

i talked wif michael bout this..
n he was lyk..so anniversary?!
i was lyk..nooo!!lol...


i rili miss dat moment (T.T)
wish i can turn back d tym..
*doraemon's time machine*
i wish..

>.<

hectic weekend
Saturday, April 5, 2008 @ 8:40 AM
i went 2 d creche yesterday..n i had sum feedback from parents..they sed they liked d way i handled their child..esp babies..

n i was lyk YEAY!!!

i finished @ 12..talked wif my AT 4 a while..

thn went 2 cty..

i checked meccha!taiko...ken sed he cud get it frm japan if i wanted 2 cz he's gna go bck 2 japan in june..n i asked him if he had talked bout it wif his parents or not cz he was thinkin 2 give them surprise..

thn he sed..his parents asked him 2 go bck..there must b sum problem..

n i was lyk *doengggg*...
i jst dont lyk being left *again*


he asked me 2 go bck 2 japan wif him..
n i sed its nt dat easy..
i mean..money 4 ticket..n visa..n whr im gna stay..n hw much im gna spend in thr *im sure i cn spend alot in thr*

thn he sed..jst bring ur ticket n passport..jst stay in my place...

n i flt i wanted 2 go 2 japan so bad...
wana go 2 yodobashi..n biccamera..
*they hv d coolest electronic shops in d world*

i jst lyk d environment in japan..


well..i told ken since thursday..i was gna start my essays..bt i told him on thursday..i was gna start it on friday cz i was 2 tired..thn i told him on friday..i was gna start essay 2day *saturday* n he was lyk..u've been sayin dat since thursday jess!!lol..


i was so tired yesterday..
i went 2 ken's apt which bunch of foods..

we ate it n watched galileo..

n afta dat..we jst chilled out..
ken wanted 2 watch doraemon bt there's no english subtitles 4 dat T.T

we'r jst talkin bout life..
but sumhw..i fell aslp on his lap..so he decided 2 play ds..

bt sumhw i woke up n played ds s well..

he asked me..slpy jess?!
n i sed noo..

he was lyk..u always say no whn u r slpy..bt u lk so damn slpy..

n i was lyk ^^"


lol..

nd 2 start me essay 2day...

hp satoshi wont cum..othawise we'r gna play instead of study --"

EFTPOSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, April 3, 2008 @ 5:27 PM
i woke up @ 6.45 2day bt sis was usin d bathroom...

so i slpt again til 7..lol..
practicum went great..
thr's a 19 months-old baby...she hadnt walked yet..
i was carryin her in my arm..n sumhw she saw her mom..she was lyk.."moooommm"..in baby language..n her mom sed..u'r gna b ok wif jessica..
she wanted her mom..so i gave her 2 her mom..bt thn few minutes lata..she's bck in my arms..
i tk her 2 wash her hands cz it was mrng tea time..
she was so excited..

haha..n i was lyk..dats enuf!!!othawise she wudnt stop playin water..
lol...

i didnt kno dat i finished @ 12..so whn my at sed i cud go hm..i decided 2 go 2 cty n started 2 look books 4 my assignments..

n i wanted 2 eat chips..thn i bought chips..
whn i opened my purse..i realised dat i left my eftpos card..
even worse..i didnt bring any cash!!!

i wasn lyk oh no!!!!wht cn i do nw?!?!?!?!??!?!
so i txted ken asked him 2 go 2 imax..n pay 4 my chips ^^"

n i flt rili bad bout it..

its my 1st time eva in my life dat i 4gt bring my eftpost card...
im gna b mr careful..nt 2 4gt my eftpost card anymore!!!

huh..
in au again nw..
ken nds 2 print out sum handouts..

im gna think wht im gna do 4 my curriculum..

n im gna start 2 look d books 4 my assignments 2moro...

ah..holiday is cumin sn..
bt im sure im gna b bz (T.T)

tired >.<
Wednesday, April 2, 2008 @ 4:54 PM
ah..im so tired..

walked frm symonds st 2 hobson st..thn back 2 k'rd..2 check guitar!!!!!!!!i tot he's gna buy it..he's jst checkin d price --"
we were in d middle of watchin d day afta 2moro --"
nw i wana finish dat mv..
n wana watch step up s well..bt evrytym we wanted 2 watch..we always changed plan 2 sthelse (T.T)

thn we'r back 2 symonds st *ken wanted 2 unchi*..thn sumhw we went out again..n im in science building in au nw..checkin internet...

ENVY!!!!

they changed pc 2 mac!!!!!!!!
wish aut changed their pc 2 mac...

T.T


btw!!!!
i bought death note dvd vol.1 gt ryuk *shinigami* figure inside..
i wanted 2 buy dat since last wk..so i bought it 2day...



death note vol. 1...im soooo hapiiii....

*yagami light*



L...isnt he cool?!?!?!?

gt ryuk *shinigami* figure inside..


ryuk *shinigami*
a bit dark tho...


ryuk =]


my mom's nt gna lyk it 4 sure if i told her i bought death note dvd..
she tot i was spending 2 much..nt lyk my sis..always save money..
bt im nt her anyway..
n im kinda savin up money nw..

>.<

i cnt w8 2 watch it....


damn!!!i wana watch L change d world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!damn damn damn...evie watched it already...
ken didnt hv tym 2 watch it whn he was in jpn..
me?!its impossible if L change d world is out in cinema in indo..
nw all i cn do is..w8 4 d dvd..
haha..
hp d dvd's gna b out sn...

おなか　いたい　（T.T)
@ 7:51 AM
yup yup..
i gt stomachache 2day..
thinkin nt 2 work..
bt lets c hw it goes..

haha..ken was so stupid last nyt *gomen*
he sed he's pregnant..its a pair of boy..whn i asked him hw he knew it..he sed frm urine test..n he felt 2 baby's head..

n he sed he's gna gv birth b4 midnyt..n d twin gna b bck @ 11.59..i asked him whr they'r gna go bck..he sed..planet ken =.=
n i was lyk..dats so mean!!!y is it only planet ken?!?!?!


haha...*dats our sillyness*

huh..
Tuesday, April 1, 2008 @ 2:57 PM
I was thinkin 2 go 2 cty cz i finished @ 12 2day..

i txtd ken..he didnt reply..

i tot he finished @ 5 2day..

so i went bck hm..

n i gt his txt around 2ish..sayin he was cookin fried rice..

i told him i tot he finished @ 5 2day..

n he sed he finished @ 2..

i was lyk..--" i was thinkin 2 go 2 cty bt tot u finished @ 5 so i wnt bck hm..

n he was lyk..gomenne..


huh!!!

tym 2 eat nori!

exhausted.
@ 2:05 PM
2nd day of my practicum..it went great actually..bt smhw i flt so bad..cz most of early childhood teachers already have children..either infants or teenagers..bt me..i hvnt had my baby yet..n in my creche..thr r lotsa new parents..so thy were kinda woried bout their children.n i cnt do anythin wif it.thy dn even think im exist jst bcz im young..n thr's my classm8 who's doin practicum in d creche dat im in s well..she talked 2 all new mom..lyk she has 2 children blablabla...so all of new moms approached her..n talkd alot wif thm..she sed 2 my at so she had passed dat stage..so all new moms shudnt b woried 2 leave their child in d creche...